We know so many things. Our minds are filled with so many words and thoughts. We are full but we feel empty. There is never enough stuff to stop the longing for more. What we really need to do is downsize. We have been needing and wanting, when what we really desire is to be and do. We need to be love and do peace.
We are too full of things, we need to be empty. We are too involved, we need to be still. We have too much stuff, we need to give. We are encumbered, we need to be free. We cling, we need to let go. We have been collecting, we need to distribute.
In all things and in every way, we need to release to be filled with what and who we really are.
In meditation today, I began to pray in desperation to be delivered from failure. I felt I had failed in my life as a mother, wife and friend. Then I realized, I hadn’t allowed myself to be successful in these areas. I saw myself as a failure because I forgot to let go of the struggle and idea of what I thought it should look like. I was trying to create a success out of material things. Things will never demonstrate to anyone the true attribute of success because things are not real.
I forgot the Spiritual journey I’m on is a continual correction of missteps and falling short. I am successful just because I have chosen to be on this journey. I am successful because I can always forgive and readjust. It is a part of the journey to recognize, forgive and move closer to my destination. I am constantly being love, peace, joy every moment. And, when I miss it, I recognize it and continue on without participating in blaming and accusing. I can stay present because I chose to be present. I am love because I choose to be love.
What would we do if this was the last day of our life? What would be the ultimate act we might consider? There may be so many things we intended to do – the ultimate bucket list, but what would we do?
When I think about this question, I think about my children and family. All the things I want to say to them, all the things I wanted to do for them. None of which matters now. When we get to this question, we are all stumped at the enormousness of it. We will only know what we will do at that moment. That is why every moment should be lived as though this was our last. It puts everything in perspective. We have choices now. There will come a day when the choices we make now will dictate our outcomes later.
Becoming one with the Universal Mind.
We look to find ourselves in everything and everywhere we think we may be. We will never find ourselves outside of ourselves. Nothing defines us, nothing reflects who we are outside of the universe that we share. We only see ourselves in each other.
“What we seek and try to find has been with us all the time. It’s not out there to buy or win it’s simply buried deep within.” Alethea
Some say we need to peel the layers of our illusion away like an onion, but what is left after that is nothing. I think it’s really more like an Artichoke that when it is peeled, reveals the heart. And along the way to the heart, we get tiny glimpses of what it tastes and looks like. We are searching for our heart, the true core of who we are.
We are here. At this moment. What will we do? What do we want? It’s the most important moment we will ever have. What is the most important thing, the main thing? I want my faith to be so sure that it is more than I can imagine, it is the unimaginable possibilities. I want the love I am capable of to be a love that is beyond words and all encompassing. I want that being who is my ultimate self to be so big it completely enfolds this person until she disappears. At this moment, my desire overwhelms me. It is too big to contain in this earthen vessel, so I go deeper into my self and find the inner space that is unmeasurable. There is where “I live and move and have my being.” It is my “God-Space”. The space we all share, whether we are aware of it or not. It is the one thing, the only thing that matters. It is waking us now to its presence. If we quite our minds long enough, we will hear it. Wake up!
Who knew in the middle of this Spiritual Journey the challenges would come with a fury. I know for sure, my ability to deal with this kind of challenge has been exponentially increased because of this Spiritual path. My peace has been evident and the love I now have in this situation would have been non-evident a few months ago. I didn’t remember I had it in me. When we allow ourselves to forget who we are, we fall into an u conscious state. By some “miracle” what I have awakened to is exactly what others have needed themselves.
I realize a desire to return to God is not just for a single person, but for all of us collectively. We are suffering as long as we stay ignorant of who we really are. The light is still brightening, and there is still a long way to go, but my determination has only gotten stronger. My focus is toward my destination to completely be the Spiritual being God intended us all to be.
I can see how pregnant the moment with acts that can heal someone’s heart or mind. How ready the innermost soul of each of us is to receive a word of truth, that will take us out of the hell we have created for ourselves. However, I also see how strongly the “ego” clings to our mind with thoughts that constantly bombard us with false information that keeps us from realizing how powerful we really are. The only way out of this “monkey mind” hell is to be completely committed to heal ourselves. We have everything we need to stop our minds control over us. We have the ability to stop the insatiable mind chatter and the illusions it creates. We have the power to control our thoughts, simply by staying awake and observing them.
Each if us need to be awakened to the truth of our Devine nature. The nature of God that is who we are will heal every dis-ease we have; when we allow ourselves to begin to live our lives through its prism.
We are more alike than we are different. We breathe the same air, and constantly exchange electrons in our daily discourse. But at a much deeper level, we are the same being connected by the golden thread that is unbreakable. Nothing can disconnect, destroy, change, or remake this truth. It is an eternal truth that is forever our destiny. When all else is over and done, we Spiritual beings of love and light will be One. So you might as well learn to start loving me now, because we will spend eternity united. This is what can change the world.
When I awoke this morning a thought crossed my mind. After a conversation with my oldest son, I realized that a single impression of an event in ones life can color everything else that happens after that. Not just an opinion about the outcome, but a person’s perspective of what took place. We establish an ‘expectation’ to repeat that experience, and what we ‘expect’ is usually what we get. We are not perfect beings and if we are honest, at times, we are often not even nice beings. We use what we have in our hands to the best of our ability and the information we have. Unfortunately, some of us only see what we have been trained by experience to see and that often is not the real picture. We establish fears of what will happen next, instead if creating what we want to happen next. We begin to expect the same result from different situations mimicking the result that our previous experience has demonstrated to us would happen. We are afraid to trust that this time could be different, and so its not to us even if, in reality, it is.
What are we afraid if? Being disappointed, being tricked, being used. Somewhere along the way we have to break this mindset that keeps us in a vicious circle of self sabotage. Whatever it is that has happened in our past that was so hurtful that it has colored the way we see the world. Whatever we did that hurt someone so deeply, that we can’t stop reliving that thing over and over again, needs to be let go. Someone once told me, the way you get over something, is to replace it with something else. We need to use that advice in releasing what we don’t want in our lives and replacing it with what we do want. This sounds simplistic and I don’t mean for it to. Because I have things I need to release, and as my son says, “Let go of it”.
There are a couple of things I know for sure. First, whatever you have been given will only increase if you give it away. Second, if anyone tells you something can not be done that’s the sign that you could be the perfect person to do it. It’s possible to continue learning throughout your life, if you stay open to changing your point of view and keep your intention focused on your bliss or your joy. You know, that thing you never shared with anyone but that kept coming up in your imagination and interrupting your ‘making a living’. That one thing you would do for free or pay someone else to allow you to do. Discovering that is like being born again or learning to do something you would never dream you could do. Letting the universe in to complete the journey your life was meant to take.